I meditated yesterday for about 10 minutes. I can pat myself on the back, even though my motivation for it was that I was feeling so down and nothing else was working. It didn’t really help my mood much, but hey, I did it. I focused on breath. I haven’t been able to find one thing to focus on that really helps, I’ve tried soham mantra, concentrating on the third eye, feeling light…but I think all of this stuff is just a diversion. I will use breath from now on, even though I haven’t had any success with it. I know it takes time and practice.
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