I've been doing a little better. I'm not sure why, as I've fallen of the Paleo wagon. I'm still not eating a LOT of grains, but it's so hard to be strict for so long. The only things that could be causing my having more energy: 1) I'm coming off Effexor - very slowly and carefully. I reduced from 225mg to 150mg/day for a month, and now I'm down to 75mg/day for a month. After that, I'll be off it. I did notice my mood was pretty bad for the first 3 weeks, but now I seem okay. 2) The weather. It's spring. 3) Accumulated effect of pushing myself a little bit every day. I started going for walks, and since then I've been able to keep going for walks. It's strange.
Anyway, who knows, this could be just random too. I haven't lost any weight or inches, but I did get a Wii and Wii Fit Plus last week, as well as some Dance games for my PS2, and I've tried to do a little bit of activity every day. I've been able to do more things around the house as well. I think it's important to be consistent, so I try to force myself to do at least some movement each day, unless I'm in a lot of pain or having a lot of fatigue. It is hard to tell when I'm playing a game how much is too much, so I've had some days where I suffered a lot of pain, especially in my legs and lower back. I'm trying to be careful, but it's really difficult to know when to stop, since I feel fine while I'm doing the activity.
My motivation is kind of odd. Usually I procrastinate a lot about chores, but I've been doing pretty well. It's the other things in life that I seem to not really care about, and sometimes I find myself thinking I don't know what to do next. Reading isn't doing much for me lately, I've started 3 or 4 books that haven't held my interest. Maybe it's the books I'm choosing, I don't know. I haven't felt motivated at all to knit or bead either. All my usual hobbies give me a sort of "meh" feeling right now. Not sure what to do about that.
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